SEX ADDICTION

                                                                 Sex Addiction
   April 2006, was the day i started sleeping with prostitute to satisfy my sexual desire.
At first, i was thinking am having fun; but i found out i keep doing virtually every month.
Before i know it, it turns to bi-monthly and in a nutshell every week.
The most painful part of it was that i always have only a round of sex which will only lasted for a some minutes.
    I tried to curb this act, but i was unsuccessful in it. At the end of every year i always make a promise to God that i don't want to sleep with the prostitute again, that if at all i will have sex it will be from my partner. But all these prove abortive. Because, before the end of the first month of the year i would have had sex more than three times.
   From April 2006 to December 2012 as i am writing this note, i have been having sex with prostitutes, some without the use of condom. To satisfy my sexual desire to the maximum, i came to University of Benin to Study Chemical Engineering, Before i ended my Year one i have known all the joints and corners of whores in Benin City.
  This drastically affected my academics in the sense that- anytime am reading and i see a girl passing-by i always picture her nakedness. and i won't be able to read again until i have sex.
I tried and tried to STOP this act but i could not.
  I did spend so much money to have sex with these prostitutes, even i did use my allowance, even school fees. But what i got most from these whores were insults as none of them could not make me    In my final year in University of Benin, I meet a Benin and we decided to be dating each other, before we started dating each other, i told her that i really love sex, and she said she does not have problem with that.
This girl gave me everything that i need from other girls. But you know what, i will still go behind here and sleep with whores and pay them so much money.
Now, am tired of all these i don't know what to do. I brought a whore into my room as at the time am writing this note. Please if you have a candid advise for me please do not hesitate to do so.
I REALLY WANT TO STOP THIS UGLY TREND IN MY LIFE BUT I DON'T KNOW WAY OUT. THOUGH AM STILL PRAYING FOR GOD'S INTERVENTION.

ME AND MY GIRL FRIEND

I MET THIS GIRL IN MY EARLY YEAR TWO IN MY UNIVERSITY DAYS. AT FIRST, I DIDN'T LOVE HER BUT LATER I WAS DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH HER THAT I CANNOT DO ANYTHING WITHOUT HER. I THINK SHE LOVED ME TOO THEN.
AS DAYS TURN TO NIGHT AND DAYS TURN TO WEEKS, THINGS STARTED CHANGING, SHE STARTED MIS-BEHAVING,ALWAYS WITH GUYS. LATER, I STARTED HEARING THAT SHE ALWAYS GO OUT OF SCHOOL TO ENJOY HERSELF WITH GUYS WITHOUT MY CONSENT.
ALL THIS I COUNTED IT AS NOTHING,BUT WHAT USUALLY HAPPEN THEN WAS THAT WE FIGHT VIRTUALLY EVERYDAY AND THE CAUSED OF THE QUARREL CANNOT BE REALLY STATED. I CALLED AND DIALOGUED WITH HER BUT SHE DIDN'T WANT TO TAKE HEED TO MY WORDS.THEN I CHANGED MY MIND, AND I STARTED LOOKING FOR WHOM I CAN REPORT HER TO AT LEAST HELP TALK SOME SENSES INTO HER HEAD,BUT COULD'T FIND ANY.
LATER, I GOT SOMEONE WHO HAPPENED TO BE HER BEST FRIEND, A GIRL TO BE PRECISE. I STOLE THIS GIRL'S NUMBER FROM MY GIRLFRIEND'S PHONE CONTACT. WELL, WE STARTED CONVERSING AND LIKE THAT LIKE THAT.SO, I STARTED REPORTING MY GIRL FRIEND'S ATTITUDE TOWARDS ME TO HER FRIEND ON THE PHONE. WELL MY GIRL FRIEND FOUND OUT THAT I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO HER BESTFRIEND BEHIND THE WHOLE RELATIONSHIP TURN UPSIDE DOWN.
THIS IS A GIRL I LOVE AND I HAVE BUILT MY WORLD AROUND HER. SHE LOVED ME ALSO ACCORDING TO HER. BUT THINGS HER NOT WORKING FOR US. OUR ONE AND HALF RELATIONSHIP HIT ROCK LIKE THAT BUT I CAN'T HELP IT. WHAT I THINK IT REALLY HAPPENED WAS THAT SHE WANT TO BE SOCIAL AND ''FEEL AMONG'' AS THEY USED TO SAY . BUT THE REVERSE IS THE CASE FOR HER.
ABIGAIL, I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS DO. IF WE CAN STILL SEE AND COME TOGETHER I WILL BE ONE OF THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON THIS PLANET.